The Paradox in reading The Fault in Our Stars.

as i read this amazing book by John Green, i am both gaining an amazing reading experience and losing my First Time experiencing it. and the first time is always the most special one. i will forever try to get that moment back. and i’m sure that in the many future times of reading it, i will discover so much what i’ve missed all the other times before, but still, i will never again have the pleasure of reading The Fault in Our Stars for the first time. and that devastates me a little bit.

and that is why i have stopped now that i’m right in the middle of it. i’m savouring it, tho i’m pretty sure i’ve read the final page before the sun has risen again.